I gotta say I agree here. I’ve been in that relationship, Edoz. She is going to continue stringing you along until she finds what she (thinks she) wants. Girls like that never really know. You deserve better than that. Stay strong and know that your GWC family is behind you all the way.
I hate to join a chorus late, but I have to agree. The whole story screams codependence. Things happen for a reason. Be strong but do what is right to keep yourself healthy.
Minor work related vents today:
- my group (I like to say band, but we’re a bit different than a band, heh heh) is getting ready to record its first CD. Had a very successful Kickstarter campaign for it last summer, rep has been picked for almost two years, we’re performing it all at a festival the day before the first session, all smooth sailing…except a month before the gigs and we still don’t have an engineer and only have just finalized a decision on a venue. And there’s so much complicated stuff to think about. And next week I go away for a week for a big premiere. AUUUUUUGH!
Which brings me to (more serious) item no.
- So in next week I go off to Oregon to hear the premiere/preview of my third symphony. I’m very excited to hear this piece as it’s not only the largest ensemble I’ve ever written for (43 individual parts!) but it’s a very personal piece for me (all about the death of a friend who died suddenly last year at way too young an age). It’s also supposed to be a very nice paycheck for me that will go a long way all year long…except I’ve yet to receive the first installment on the payment which was supposed to happen before I turned in parts and we’ve spent through the last round of payments I received from various other commissions in November. And my friend who is directing this consortium commission (lots of different bands pooling their money to pay me to write them a piece) is fighting some serious depression issues that lead him to lose focus and not respond right away when I need to have my questions answered and fears asuaged. AUUUUUGH! :eek:
Oh, sweetie! hugs It really sounds like C had a lot of ways to keep you at arms length, and you are worth more than being strung along. I’ve been there, too, and had pretty much resolved that I was better off alone than tied to some jackass who only wanted me when it was convenient. I know it sucks, but you owe it to yourself to hold out for someone who wants you ALL the time.
You deserve better than C. There is someone out there that will love you back the right way. It’s hard not to slide back into old familiar territory but please stay strong. Feelings will fade, things will get better, and you will be stronger. hugs
Thanks, all. I’m standing firm, we’re getting along well but staying separate. It’s not really bothering me, but it’s only been a couple of days. I haven’t quite decided if I was over it already or it just hasn’t sunk in yet. We’ll see, and thanks again for all the support.
You know Armando, I still have a sticky note on my bulletin board right where I can see it that reads-
“We fight them until we can’t.” Starbuck via Armando
I look at it almost everyday. You’re right of course. In the good news department, my instructor posted the live chat schedule for the rest of the quarter and it includes two more night chats. Small victory for me.
I’m late- but please take a hug anyway, because you’ll need one at some point.
Hang in there Edoz, thinking of you.
Yeay! Glad I could help. 
And glad I read that, cause I need to remember to fight. Freelance life is great, but it’s tough, and today I had news that a concert with a big commission I’m counting on for next year may need to be pushed back a year because the venue will be undergoing rennovations and the director has been asked to postpone all 2013 events. But I REALLY am counting on that money.
It will sort itself out, of course, but it’s still frightening when this happens.
So, with no warning, my monthly mortgage payment increased by $700. Since its automatically withdrawn, imagine my surprise (and shock) when I checked my account balance yesterday. Apparently our county taxes are TRIPLE the amount previously estimated. TRIPLE! How can they underestimate by that much? And all they could tell me is “these things happen.” Bullshit. Fucking mortgage company idiots.
Unless I win the lottery, I’m not gonna see you guys in March. Fuck
So on Monday my group is told we at working 6 days a week, which sucks. Then yesterday we are told it is going to be 12 hour days, but that’s only a bit more than I’m already working. This morning find out they redid the schedule removing all the Sunday day-off, so it now shows work being done 7 days a week. But we’re not being told to work 7 days a week, just to stay on schedule. WTF. Plus my time off request for next weekend to go home to see my family has been pulled back for review, dispute having submitted it the first week of jan, having it approved, and purchasing the airfare. I only get to go home every other weekend to see my wife and kids (working out of state - long story) and now it looks like I’m going on miss two trips home. Just need to vent…
I am here: http://maps.google.com/maps?ll=27.347639,-80.244501
Anthrax actually have a song about this, if you need a little stress relief…
(Guitarist Scott Ian is a big BSG fan, but this song, if I understand correctly, is about zombies [literal zombies, not the kin you meet at work].)
“Fight 'Em Till You Can’t.”
These things happen? Are you frakking kidding me? THAT’S what they told you? I think you need to occupy your mortgage company!
Yes, it’s about zombies. It’s a great song. Along the BSG line, the song “Earth on Hell” from the same album has the line “So say we all” in the chorus.
FFFRRRAAAAKKKK!
I hate (with a passion) the Cooper Test. Run date of Monday June 25th, so no more whisky or beer until June 26th for Oddball.
Madre de Dios,
OB
P.S. I know, not many positive waves, but darn as I age I do not enjoy self inflicted pain.
As mentioned previously my hard drive on the desktop has been slowly dying, and on Monday it finally went tits-up. I went to Fry’s Electronics this morning with my old dead-ass drive in the truck with the intention of getting a new drive and then stopping by the computer shop to get an estimate on how much it would cost to transfer over my data onto the new drive. Well things did not go as planned… (what a surprise eh?)
I have been a fan of Fry’s for over a decade, it is like Disneyland for Geeks. A magical place full of electronic components, gadgets, action figures, software and so on. So imagine my surprise when I went to the aisle I have gone to for years and find no hard rives there. This aisle used to be full of HUNDREDS of drives, raid arrays, and anything related to storage. Its was a marvel to behold, they used to have a mop bucket there to clean up the drool… (OK maybe not, but you get the idea) Anyways it was full of clocks, thermometers, barometers and a slew of other things I was not interested in. I looked around to see where they had moved my much needed drives to, and spotted a sign hanging over over a nearby wall advertising ‘Hard Drives’. (In a Richard Dreyfus voice: “This means something!”) I walk over to find a pitifully small display of storage devices. A twelve foot wall with four shelves, shelves with barely anything on them. It was like the Charlie Brown Christmas Tree of data storage. And no, they did not have anything at all that I wanted; and the prices sucked on top of that…
David Byrne was in my head singing, “This is not my beautiful store, this is not my Geek Paradise!” (sung to: Once in a lifetime)
I fear Fry’s is slowly drifting towards the fate that overtook Border’s. It is hard for brick-and-mortar stores to compete with Amazon and Newegg, which sucks because I prefer a real business when I am building a computer. Because Fry’s was alway great about returning faulty components, and as we all know there is almost always one bad component when you are building a project. And it is great when you can jump in the truck and drive over to exchange it, as opposed to mailing it back and waiting a week or two for the replacement to arrive. Plus Fry’s is fully loaded with knowledgeable staff of whom I love to pick their brains on stuff, and glean advice.
Anyways I then went nearby to Best Buy and things were even more bleak there. I just finished shopping around online and ironically found an even larger and quicker drive than I had been shopping for… for less. And it will arrive in time for my next paycheck to be available for the data transfer. It is a Western Digital so I think it will not be a lemon. (it would suck if I have to mail it back) And I found it ironic that it was cheaper on Amazon than on Newegg.
I hope Fry’s keeps on kickin, and makes it through this tough spot and comes back strong. I have many happy memories of my builds using their parts.
The paucity of hard drives might have more to do with the floods in Thailand and the subsequent worldwide shortage of drives than any problems with Fry’s in particular.
But then, I’m an east coaster and all we’ve got is Best Buy.
I did know about about a shortage… I guess this is what happens when you are six months behind on your ‘tech’ podcasts. 
Edit: That was supposed to read- I did NOT know about a shortage… Geez I cannot believe I missed that!!! :eek:
Ugh, I spent the day at MegaCon and stopped for dinner on my way back, but my credit card got rejected. Apparently the one place I used it at was crooked and used it some other places while they had the information.
It’s all straightened out now, but my main credit card is now useless until I get a replacement. I have an emergency one and a debit card, but it’s really annoying.
Plus, my picture with Brent Spiner is going to have to be mailed to me and I have a monster headache.